Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Broken Hearted.

My sweet baby girl:

Saturday morning I woke up early because you were slipping on the floor (second time that night).

As I started to help you, I could tell that it wasn't like the other times.....

I saw you struggling to keep your head up and knew that you couldn't control your legs. I told daddy that something was wrong and he jumped out of bed to be with you.

I knew that it was time.

I didn't want to bring you to the emergency vet because you had become so afraid of them. I couldn't put you through that.

We laid on the floor with you. I kissed you and stroked you. I told you that I loved you, and it was ok to let go. I know how important it was for you to please us.

Did you know? Did you understand what was going on?

I could see you slipping away, but you wanted to stay. Each time you started to fade, you would focus on opening your eyes. You were always strong.

Did you know that it had been 5 weeks, to the day, since we rushed you to the vet.

At one point you managed to pull your head up and looked at daddy..... Were you asking for forgiveness because you knew you were going to lose control of your bowels?

You needed no forgiveness.

You were calm and I thought that you were going peacefully...... But your breathing became a bit labored. My gut told me that it was time to take you to the vet...... I made the call. I couldn't let you suffer.

We got a blanket and used it to carry you down the stairs, then into the elevator, and after what seemed like a million years, we placed you in the back of the jeep.

I had run in to emergency to let them know that we were there. By the time I returned to help daddy carry you in, you were gone.

Gasp.

We brought you in, laid you gently on the exam room floor, and wrapped you snugly in the blanket.

I cuddled to you. You were still warm, you still smelled like you. It was so hard to leave you there. I know that you had been living on borrowed time, but it wasn't fair........ You had initiated a tug-of-war match and sprinted down the hall just two days prior. I thought we had more time.

You were the sweetest, most loving, loyal dog I've ever known. Everyone who met you fell in love.

Can't believe how lost I am without you.

You gave us so much joy 'Sadie Bug'. I hope you knew/ know how much you mean to us.

We are better people for having had you in our lives.

We love you with all of our hearts.

Love,
Mum & Dad
Xoxo




























Gotta run.

31 comments:

Char said...

I'm so, so sorry. We lost our lovely dalmatian earlier this year and I know just how sad you're feeling. Big hug from Australia.

Deloris said...

So sorry. :(

Christy @ My Dirt Road Anthem: A Runner's Blog said...

So sorry, big hugs.

northernbliss said...

My heart is forever broken

Momshomerun said...

That is soo sad… I'm sorry for your loss!

BabyWilt said...

I am so sorry and deeply saddened to read Sadie is no longer with you; loosing a doggie is one of the hardest thing I know. They unconditionally give you all the love they have in the world and when they go they take a little piece of us with them. She was loved madly by you and I'm sure many more (I know I read her posts to my 2 pooches). The heartache lessens but the memories will stay forever xxxx

JP said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You made me cry. Time and tea help.

Mike said...

So very sorry for your loss ... my thoughts are with you in this very sad time. Pets .... I do Hope you can take some comfort from all the happy memories and times past. Please find strength from knowing that you were there when it really mattered.

Michael

Tink said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. She looks like a very sweet buddy.

Vaudiophile said...

I'm so very sorry about your dog baby.

William said...

I'm so sorry! My thoughts are with you guys.

gene said...

So sorry for your loss. Hang in there

Lisa said...

Saddest thing I've read in a long time. I'm so so sorry for your loss. My heart is heavy for you.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

I'm sorry to hear about your Dalmatian Char. I've been through this three times over the past 22 years.... It never gets any easier. Thanks for reaching out :)

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you Deloris.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Sadie loved her Gramma Janet!

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you...... It means a lot to have you reach out.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you Christy.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you for sharing..... You understand what I am going through. It gives me comfort in remembering I am not alone. Xo

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

You're obviously a pet lover..... You understand the pain associated with this sort of loss. My pets were my children.. .... Sadie is the last of three. We've had at least one fur-baby in our lives for 22 years. I can't take anymore heartbreak for awhile so it may be awhile before we adopt a new baby. Thanks for the comment.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you Michael.... Your comment means a lot to me.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

She was my baby girl :)

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you for your condolences.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you Wliliam.

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Hi Gene...... It's been awhile; thanks for reaching out. Hope you are well?!

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thanks for commenting. It really helps.... Thank you.

lindsay said...

i am so sorry for the loss of your beloved family member, sadie :(

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you Lindsay,
Xo

Big Daddy Diesel said...

I am so sorry, my thoughts and prayers go out to and your family for your loss

Big Daddy Diesel said...

I am so sorry, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family

Stacey UltraPrincess said...

Thank you so much for the condolences...... It's been a rough go. It's wonderful to have people like you to help me through this difficult time.