Saturday morning I woke up early because you were slipping on the floor (second time that night).
As I started to help you, I could tell that it wasn't like the other times.....
I saw you struggling to keep your head up and knew that you couldn't control your legs. I told daddy that something was wrong and he jumped out of bed to be with you.
I knew that it was time.
I didn't want to bring you to the emergency vet because you had become so afraid of them. I couldn't put you through that.
We laid on the floor with you. I kissed you and stroked you. I told you that I loved you, and it was ok to let go. I know how important it was for you to please us.
Did you know? Did you understand what was going on?
I could see you slipping away, but you wanted to stay. Each time you started to fade, you would focus on opening your eyes. You were always strong.
Did you know that it had been 5 weeks, to the day, since we rushed you to the vet.
At one point you managed to pull your head up and looked at daddy..... Were you asking for forgiveness because you knew you were going to lose control of your bowels?
You needed no forgiveness.
You were calm and I thought that you were going peacefully...... But your breathing became a bit labored. My gut told me that it was time to take you to the vet...... I made the call. I couldn't let you suffer.
We got a blanket and used it to carry you down the stairs, then into the elevator, and after what seemed like a million years, we placed you in the back of the jeep.
I had run in to emergency to let them know that we were there. By the time I returned to help daddy carry you in, you were gone.
We brought you in, laid you gently on the exam room floor, and wrapped you snugly in the blanket.
I cuddled to you. You were still warm, you still smelled like you. It was so hard to leave you there. I know that you had been living on borrowed time, but it wasn't fair........ You had initiated a tug-of-war match and sprinted down the hall just two days prior. I thought we had more time.
You were the sweetest, most loving, loyal dog I've ever known. Everyone who met you fell in love.
Can't believe how lost I am without you.
You gave us so much joy 'Sadie Bug'. I hope you knew/ know how much you mean to us.
We are better people for having had you in our lives.
We love you with all of our hearts.
Mum & Dad